Hi ppl,
I am writing this as I am unable to sleep… it’s about 3.15am now and I can’t get to sleep. I have been in bed since like 12ish and read Archie… read mag to make me feel sleepy.. I should be sleepy as I woke up early today hmmm and in couple hours I have to go to Clinic.. Usual Monday! Hmm…. I will be cranky and tired… I just hope my colleague Tamara would be there and make me awake…. I have reports to write.
My mind is actively thinking but I can’t figure out what I am thinking about… maybe I had coffee hmmm but normally coffee wont affect me… I had coffee with my friend, Dr Raymond at Rundle Street, we chatted a bit and Ray also had some study to do for his pathology exam, if I am not mistaken. Maybe the coffee I had there make me awake… I had Vienna coffee… hmmm….
And I am listening to this song by Heidi Yunus.. The first line is “Dalam gelisah, hati yang gundah, aku diam sendiri, merenungi…” but this is kind of a love song… I don’t have love problem.. as I don’t have any right now ha ha ha…. So I don’t know… maybe this is just one the days where I can’t fall asleep… maybe I am worry but I don’t really feel that way…
Anyway, let’s just forget about that… lately I been bothered by people that can’t seem to be able to keep their time on track. I don’t know how this people would work. My motto is better early than late. Sometimes I wonder how people are unable to keep track of their time especially when making appointment to meet up, for lunch or for dinner. Always the case that I wait for people, let me tell you, it is not even like 10 or 15 minutes, it goes on for an hour or more, and these people don’t even have the courtesy to inform that they will be late or so.. Entah lah Labu… another thing is that when people make arrangement, people turn up and they are not ready… how is that! Hmm…. In this manner I missed certain of my friends whose always on time… if they are late, only 5 minutes late and they will inform… I miss Haiza… she is always on time… for me, time is important… hmmm….
Anyway, this is summer in Australia and everyone is having holiday. Like always, I don’t have mine as I have clinic placements. That’s okay, I don’t mind really… everyone is leaving, Rekaya left yesterday, he was among the people I hang out here and among the first person I know in Adelaide, before I get to know Ziyah and Neil. Now all of them have left Adelaide for good, Neil back in UK, Ziyah in Brunei and Sarawak for Rek. Feel a bit different but I am ok as I am used to it. The first part of my life in Adelaide was mostly with them!!
Life here like always very challenging, good that I have support from friends. Like in Ireland, I had Sing Howe, Kak Incan, Farha to be my backbone, not forgetting Abg Misle and Fairuz… as well as Sabreena and Rosie! Thus why till now I miss those time and I miss them… we laughed and cried together… In UK, I must thank Sam and Weeja for their support and good laughed, not forgetting Ida, thanks. Come Ady, a great fella and he is such a great friend whom you can really on… Aidil to gossip with hahaha… and Dayah to add to the colourful life in Leeds hahhaha…. Here in Adelaide, I must say Diane has been great to me, I stay strong with her by my side, my coffee buddy, my good friend and Hanif (the first person ever to call me Abg Yus!!so Hamsap! hahaha) for being there listening to me, and our usual strawberry fondue and Train sushi! I feel blessed with their presence during my hard times… and those at MSN… for always there to talk and chat with me, especially Meela, Su Jing, Ida and Sally! And Alinah!! hahaha And of course Haiza and SNO, that’s is Lizah not senior Nursing officer hahaha… and my new friend Eli law!! And I wanna thank Kak Mai and Kak Has for always feeding me with food and good talk!!
Hahah… I just wanna thank these people. I may miss some people and I hope u ppl don’t mind… I will write next time, what do you expect, its 3 am hahah I am not that oriented! Hahaha…. Well I forget to mention Mun!! hahaha… she always for me too!! Hehehe…. And Haslin!! My “Aunt” hahahaha…………
I am wondering at times how come some people that used to be in my life and like the people that I feel would always be there for me, now they are so far away from me… for these people, I know they would say that I don’t keep in touch but I wanna say I did but I give up… its just why all the times it is me who had to do the “keep in touch” and never them. Like I remember them more than they remember me so why should I bother! When I know I don’t need them… for one person who tainted my trust… I don’t knw what to say to you… as honestly I don’t feel a thing now… and I don’t feel it’s my lost! I just wish you the best!! May u see the light! I know I have always been a good friend to you and if you can’t see that, I won’t push it! Not that I depend on you for my happiness!! I am always okay without you anyway!
Oh ya for the past few weeks been helping Abg Fahmi n Fariza.. moving their stuffs to their new place… so nice the new place, I like very much! And I like their son, Taufiq, so cute and always smiling hehe….
Okay people, it is about 4am now, I am hoping once I get to bed I can get some sleep before I go to work!! Or else!!
Okay people… Iril I am going to use your word.. “There are angels among us” and I will continue with my word “ And always remember, the devil besides us!” hahaha… thanks Iril, I know you want me to be more spiritual and see the world as Dalai Lama… I am trying mate, but I am just me… a normal chap…. No enlightment yet!! Hahaha………… keep up the good work mate!! I miss having soto with you!!
Regards
Yau.
